Wednesday, March 12, 2025

3/12/25

i have a lot on my mind rn. ik there's days where you're up and down, but I don't understand why down days carry a weight that is so much heavier than good days. 

so for fundies (cs 2510), I have a partner that I work on for assignments. she's my friend and she's fun to hang around with. she's just a really bad work partner, though. I'm so frustrated because I've been making all the efforts to meet with her at least more than a day before the hw deadline, not just a couple of hours before it's due. this means that I do most of the hw in case we don't submit on time. so for one of our homework's, we got a 0 on it because I accidentally used the static keyword for one of the methods in the utils class. i worked so hard on this fucking assignment just for it to get discarded because of ONE keyword. i don't fucking understand the grading system and the logic behind it. you're going to penalize me for using a keyword that is COMMON PRACTICE in the REAL WORLD??? gtfo of here. idek why I'm so frustrated. i knew that spending more time out of class to work on stuff that will actually get me a fucking job will pay off in the long run, and so far it's definitely paid off. i have a summer internship lined up and I don't think that would have been possible if I spent as much time in the books as I did last semester. i had a 4.0 gpa last semester, but at what cost? i got rejected from almost every single internship I applied to. 

this semester, I've made sure to work on developing my skills and resume and when the motherfuckers who make fun of ur gpa don't have a job they'll see why. gpa isn't everything

I just realized this might be an insane level of copium oh my god I'm so mad

anyways I wanna talk more about my summer internship at LSQ - I'm so glad it's an actual company and not some small ass startup not willing to pay me anything. the CTO's name is Shawn Wen and he's worked at Microsoft and at amazon alexa so that's actually really cool. hoping to learn a lot. I'm the youngest one on the team lol

I applied on handshake and shawn said he chose 10 ppl to interview (I think he was only picking from northeastern). i was the last person he picked, and then he chose 3-4 more people to interview. he then chose 2 ppl. one of them was me and another was a grad student lmfao 

ok before was last night I'm writing again
idk if I'm suffering from success rn bc I'm getting so many interviews. i just got one from cyberark which has like 250k+ followers on LinkedIn. i doubt ill get the role but if I do maybe I just do that one instead of LSQ? idk

anyways I have to do AI BootCamp hw now

ttyl future me!